Discussion with Myself


—after Call Me by Your Name

Maybe it’s elemental : The way of
the body in sand, in shade, in rivers
wide and sweeping : Skin touches
water and everything decompresses:
Skin touches skin and everything
erupts : In attics there are boys
kissing men : In summer there are
bicycles left unlocked : Whatever is
taken is offered willingly :

It is enough to make you jealous :
To make you wish you’d known
sooner : Imagine the time saved :

This is what it means to take the
long way : You splash naked in
the water, remembering only what
has hurt : Most of what your body
seeks is nameless : The hungry eye,
the gentle wrist : But in darkest
hours, when the light begins to
waver, you know what you are
looking for